I love her with every speck of my soul
But I had to make things very clear....
So when she asked me WHY I had to be concise and clear.
I guess for me I can see both sides. Like the song. - I've looked at life from both sides now.
i can see why you want to get out of the city and the struggles you have with the daily city grind. There are possibly things that could be done make it not hard. And I see the kids will need to live in one place for school.
I also see how you have always been so independent. You did what you wanted and took advantage of the opportunities that were there. You have always been so proud of how independent and hard working you were. The reason you have always been so independent is because you were hard working and you had control of your own finances and your own destiny.
So as you get older - ask me as I know that happens - I see that without your own finances - you will become more dependent on those around you. You will give up the ability to choose. And that may at times be difficult. You may not get to do something you might want to do - like come to Vancouver. Or take the kids on a trip. Or as the kids get older they will spend more time with friends. And then as you get older you may wish not to work so hard - or are unable to work so Hard then you become even more dependent on others to provide you with the basic needs of food and heat and stuff. I see a loss of independence for you. That is what troubles me a bit.
I see that because I am here - not able to work. But I do see what you mean about the farm. I just see both sides.
I love you
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Here is my email reply to her this morning
Well maybe I should just stay here on my fat ass at TELUS, and work for money and live in this shitty city and be dependent on THIS system. The system of grocery stores, and capitalism, an economy that I cannot control and a system that is bound to collapse.
I could spend hours explaining it all to you, but you would just think I’m a conspiracy theorist nut case.
Or I could link you to a bunch of documentaries that you could watch while you are laid up in bed.
Or I could just tell you that there is no way for the systems that are in place now, to continue to maintain and support us into infinity.
WATER is first and foremost the most important commodity on earth and we are running out of fresh water faster than we know what to do about it.
But the average person like yourself, doesn’t REALIZE that and frankly, because of cognitive dissonance, the average Joe won’t even ACCEPT or understand the scale at which WATER is disappearing.
This isn’t even about TELUS about WORK about doing something different.
This is about permanently securing a future for myself and the kids.
This is about continuing.
This is about finding a way to ensure that PHEE can have kids and her kids can have kids.
Because with our current WATER crisis, we are going to have water wars in the next 10 – 15 years.
An economic collapse is inevitable.
Water wars are inevitable.
And everyone else can sit in their cushy fucking houses and be ignorant and naïve and think that nothing with ever change but I refuse to be ignorant.
WHERE WILL YOU BUY FOOD WHEN YOU CANT GO TO SAFEWAY?
Have you ever ever asked yourself that?
Probably not. Because you assume there will always BE grocery stores.
Are you aware that a grocery store only CARRIES 3 DAYS worth of food because it cannot hold more than that and it’s not cost effective or SAFE to keep more than a 3 day store of food? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SUbKin-zrj4
So what happens, when, let’s say oil prices sky rocket and the cost of transporting food goes up and your fancy Safeway in Caulfield hasn’t got any raw fruit and veg?
Where will you get fruit and veg?
Where will everyone in WEST van and lions bay get fruit and veg?
WHAT HAPPENS When the cost of oil is so high that ENGLAND who IMPORTS 87% of their FOOD Can No LONGER afford to pay to have their food shipped in on trucks?
WHAT happens to YOU when your taps no longer give you free running fresh clean water?
Do you know how many fucking people on this earth LIVE without TAPS? Without clean running fresh water?
So what will YOU DO?
You know what you will do when the shit hits the fan, because it completely and undeniable GOING TO HAPPEN, You will come to beautiful Bergen Alberta, where I will have cisterns full of water, set up to catch water from the rain, the roof, the snow. Water purification systems set up to clean that water.
I just cannot live blindly, and oblivious to the fact that in 50 years… this world is NOT going to be what we know now.
I NEED TO SECURE A FUTURE FOR HUNTER AND PHEE.
MY CHILDREN WILL SURVIVE AND HAVE CHILDREN
And I will survive. And YOU WILL COME TO ME AND SURVIVE
And you can think that all of this is just conspiracy. But the FUCKING REALITY is that my children are going to be ALIVE in 50 years.
HOW MUCH OIL DO WE HAVE LEFT?! AND HOW MUCH WILL THAT OIL COST in 25 years… 50 years?
The idea behind all of this is very very very simple.
SECURE YOUR OWN SYSTEM FOR SURVIVAL
Because I CANNOT In good conscious rely on the systems in place.
There is just too much pointing to inevitable collapse.
I’m sorry if all this sounds harsh, but this is it.
I don’t want to have to riot and fight in the streets of Calgary for FOOD and WATER and GASOLINE.
I don’t want to be living in a cold basement suite without any way to heat that basement suite WITHOUT GASOLINE or electricity.
I can’t heat water, clean water, purify water in that basement suite without gasoline or electricity.
In Alberta, my electricity IS GAS.. Natural GAS that they are FRACKING out of the ground WITH WATER!!!
RUINING the water tables and the streams to SUCK the water out of the rivers and FORCE it back down INTO the earth to make the ground unstable and toxic, for natural GAS.
CAPITALISM has FUCKED us COMPLETELY.
Capitalism forced us into a state of complete disaster and gluttony.
Capitalism forced agriculture to a state of MAX capacity, where NOW!!! RIGHT NOW, ONE of the LARGEST threats to the environment in the fucking USA, is the WASTE produced by PIG FARMS… POISONING the water supply.
There are people all over the world right now, who understand the bigger picture, and they are leaving their lives within this system, walking away from everything and starting over, the right way. The way we used to do things.
There are people all over the world who are trying to fight MONSANTO and fight for SEED FREEDOMS.
And the people will not WIN against Monsanto. This company and this corporation is too big to fail. So instead of fighting against the systems and protesting… I’m going to GROWTEST..
IM GONNA BUG OUT OF THIS INSANITY AND GROW. AND THRIVE and NOT BE DEPENDENT ON THE TIT OF THE GOVERNEMENT AND ALL THE SYSTEMS IN PLACE.
And I will be thankful when a majority of the populations of these massive cities, is wiped out with riots and famine.
VANDANA SHIVA http://www.facebook.com/savetheseed?fref=ts
I just cannot be a part of this system of EGO, GREED, SELFISHNESS, IGNORANCE, OBLIVIOUSNESS, And WASTE, VIOLENCE, and Destruction.
I do not HAVE to live within society and I do not agree with capitalism and I will not participate in it any longer. Its freaking INSANE to assume we have NEVER ENDING OIL SUPPLIES and NEVER ENDING WATER supplies and that the GROCERY stores will ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLWAYS be there to feed us, and we can go buy BRIE or EGGNOG when ever our little fucking heart’s desire and we can SHOWER ever day twice a day just because we have the luxury to do so.
HOW LUXURIOUS we will live when the government realizes that CANADA is running out of fresh water and has to regulate WHEN and HOW often and HOW long we shower for.
Are you aware that it is illegal to shower for more than 5 minutes in Australia?
And right now… Scott and Jon and Andrea and Jordenne and I will all be looked at like extremist NUTCASES…
But I PROMISE and GARANTEE YOU That in 20 years, we will be 20 years AHEAD of the game.
Because this is coming down the pipe, and I will not wait until it is too late.
I included all the links in the email for her as well.
I may be extreme, but the fact remains. This is why I have made this choice.